I’m not a cliche, as a person and most certainly not as a bride.

Our wedding is small, by choice, and for the most part, my people have a long way to travel and in a time of less than choice economic standing it means a hell of a lot that most are coming.  I’ve only lived in this part of the country for 3.5 years and while I have been blessed with love and a career that’s kicking off, I’m sure any transplant would lament about the difficulties of making friends as an adult with no given structure to make them, IE college, etc.

Meaning I actually have very few friends here where I live, Oh I have some and its getting better all the time, but not many and its an understatement to say my family (I have two uh-ma-zing sisters) are also not geographically close.

So while I have held my shit together wedding wise, I’m not stressed or worried, despite having DIYed much of it and planned it in less than 6 months I may have let a bit of egocentrism in the other day.

And by “may have” I mean blubbered like a baby over the fact that no one thought to, could or did throw me a bridal shower or bachelorette party.  I mean I GET it, truly I UNDERSTAND that its not viable or feasible and I’d much rather people come for my actually wedding than a silly shower, but its one of those THINGS a girl always wants.  I’ve been SO good about letting things slide that don’t really matter and I’m not super traditional anyway and while its my first wedding its not my fiances (though he says its his first real marriage, awww, sweet).

I didn’t even have any special moment with my dress, which is indeed lovely, because there has been no one to ooh and aah over me, I mean I had to learn to bustle it myself because there was no one to go with me.  I mean maybe in 20 years it won’t matter to me that either no one (fiance included, despite the fact that that would be a traditional faux pas) could or would do something to show me I’m special, to show me I’m a real bride, but right now, it really does.